How is it that laundry seems to multiply over night. I swear it is as bad as rabbits!!

I was sad today to learn that Corey Haim had died. I know it seems funny that I of all people would mention him, but actually he was my second crush as a teen.
Being that I was an innocent young girl of 17 when “The Lost Boys” came out I was not allowed to go to the movie at that time. My parents did not believe in TV or movies so we did not have the distraction of either one. “The Lost Boys” was the second movie I saw in my life. I snuck out to see it. (My first being Footloose and how that played into my life is another story for another day!)
I was watching as Corey Feldman was talking about Haim on TV and he said something that was interesting to me. He said, “We should all just grow up. He had nothing and no one to turn to and no one extended a hand.” I find these words so very interesting.
Hollywood seems so far out of touch for the average person. If I were to approach a star for the mere fact of saying hello most would walk by. Why? I am average. (not in my own mind though!!) Hollywood is so exterior that I think either they would freak out that an overweight middle age woman approached and said hello. If you know me then you know that my heart is a big heart for anyone. Yet I doubt that most in Hollywood would give me the time of day.
That being said I must admit I was one of Haim’s fans. His dashing eyes and quick wit I enjoyed watching on TV and the movies. He had a gift for dressing in the most interesting things and making them work for him. He had a smile that I could see lighting up a room. I simply enjoyed him. I am sorry that he did not find his peace here on this earth. I only pray that his tortured soul finds peace at last in his death.
Knowing that this memorial is simply mine I don’t expect that Corey Feldman will ever read this and know Corey Haim still had a big fan that reveled in the fact that he was trying to make a come back. No, I may not be Hollywood, but I am a simple fan that is sad at the news of Corey Haim’s death.

I remember looking in her eyes and seeing the possibilities. I saw our little miracle. Our baby. She was not suppose to happen. Science and doctors said that our chance of having a successful pregnancy was about 20%. I remember looking at her and knowing that doctors only knew part of the equation and then there’s God.
Watching her grow up I have been so proud of her. She is such a light. She has always been my little girl.
We have noticed her changing. She has been changing and becoming her own person. Now at almost 13 she is blossoming into a beautiful young lady.
I know that in reaching this step in a girl’s life where they walk the path towards womanhood that we will have more times where we may not always see eye to eye. Last night reminded me that no matter where she is in her life that she will always need me. She needs me to help her understand and guide her through the changes in her life, her body, her spirit.
We as mothers do not discuss this. It is like the forbidden off subject. This responsibility seems so overwhelming. How is it that I can help guide a woman in having a baby and how to nurse them and care for them, but when it comes to my own I have such mixed emotions on her growing up.
The reality that she is growing up and taking her steps towards womanhood is a bit overwhelming right now. I know the path she is on because I have traveled it. Her detours will be different but the biological path is the same. I only pray that I can help make this transition as easy as possible on her.