**Funny stuff after the serious stuff**
So I started today on my getting healthier and taking my health seriously.
I took my skin seriously last night and again this morning with moisturizing. I know that sounds nutty but in our state it is DRY and my skin gets cracked if I am not careful.
This morning I ate breakfast which was a very unconservative breakfast for me but none the less it was breakfast. I made home made chicken noodle soup last night. It was delicious. I heated leftovers for breakfast. I have no idea what the caloric intake was because I made it. I can assume it was lower because I only used chicken breast and then used my own chicken stock. I put carrots and celery in it. I normally make my own noodles but this time I used the no yolks noodles. It was fabulous.
I went to bed at a decent hour and got up at 5:45. I could only fit in a 20 minute walk, but at this moment that is better than nothing.
Yesterday was such a crazy day. I found myself giggling and saying to myself, “You can’t make this kind of stuff up!” Do you ever blog and think that it sounds so incredulous that it sounds made up. This time was no exception.
The kid’s school is doing a silent auction. They were making all of the class baskets and ran out of baskets. We were then asked to go to Basket World which was by Mission Avacado to get the said baskets. BASKET WORLD BY MISSION AVACADO???!! Sure enough we got there and it was a plethera of baskets and party supplies for CHEAP. When we met the owner he was a little Chinese man. He was at cute as they come. He asked what we did. I explained what I did and my friend explained that she is a Latin teacher. He then spouted off something in Latin. She looked at him and smiled. He explained in his very thick Chinese accent, “I was alter boy!! I know Catholic Latin!” He was very proud of himself and had this crazy snorty laugh.
After we left we broke out into gobs of giggles. When asking her what was so funny besides the snorty laugh. She explained, “I couldn’t understand a word that man said. He had a Chinese accent on Latin!! It’s bad enough to try to understand an English accent let alone another language’s accent!!” Of course that being said we both were almost in tears from laughing at the events of the day.
Our next journey…MISSION AVACADO. I wonder if it’s like James Bond….oh oh or like Mission Impossible Avacado?

Last year in August I was contacted by Prevention Magazine to add to one of their articles on knowing your body and listening to it. I had never heard of Prevention Magazine at that point. Ok, so I do not generally read magazines. Who has the time with little ones? I can tell you that has changed. I do not have a subscription, but I do pick it up once in a while when I see something that I feel is more applicable to me.
I am not the work out kind of person. I am simply not motivated to do so. I will do it if it is disguised as sports. That’s my kind of work out. I cannot stick to something that takes a huge amount of time or discipline. I know I am sharing my soft pink underbelly, but it is truthful. One of the things that I wanted to change in this year is that I wanted to be more disciplined in all areas of life.
When I was at the grocery store I saw the January release. The title was, “Win Back Your Metabolism!” I would kill to have my old metabolism back. So I bought it. I got home and immediately got into the tub. (My only place I read and my place of respite) The children were at school, the animals were shut out and the whole world melted away. I started reading the article entitled, “Fast Track your Fat Loss”. It was a concept of walking 3-4 times a day yet in 10-minute slots. That was something I could live with. That is about the limit of my attention span so I thought I would give it a shot. It was still working out 30-40 minutes a day, but it was disguised as only 10 minutes of my life. Could I build a habit of good health instead of sabotaging myself into letting my perfectionism and expectations of myself get in the way?
Last week I was really wondering if I could give myself that break.
I am taking the baby steps. I started yesterday. I am actually nervous that I might actually succeed. If that isn’t nuts enough I keep wondering if I should actually keep up with this that I might be healthy again. The thought of it seems so simple. I have been fighting PCOS for so long that I have accepted myself long ago for who I was and where I was physically, emotionally, medically…etc. To think that by taking 10 minutes of my life 3 times a day is something that I don’t feel I would get bored with. I think I could live with this. I pray I can do this every day. I had given up long ago that PCOS would rule my life. I laid down and let it trample me. For the first time since I was 20 when we first saw the signs of this terrible disease I feel hopeful and a spirit of lashing out, rebellion, stubborn. I feel my spirit rising as if to have the fight of my life. Truly it is. Truly it is the fight for my life.

The struggle I have with trying to lose weight is one day. I know that may sound ridiculous, but truly it is not. If I could get over my perfectionism of never wanting to have a bad day I would have kicked my weight problem a long time ago.
I get stuck in the rut of…. if I screw up today that it is all shot. I have no chance of redemption and to give up because I can never accomplish it anyway. As I sat last night and realized that I do this kind of sabotage to myself I was discouraged. How did I ever allow myself to talk to myself that way? I have never suffered with confidence, but lately I seem to be struggling to stay focused. The brand new year meant a new start and the first thing I do to myself is yell at myself for having dessert.
Controlling weight is less about the occasional screw-ups and more about the daily life and how you live it. I do not want to get discouraged this year. Already I have lost 15 pounds and do not want to go backwards again.
For those of you that have struggled and then succeeded…. please let me know how to quit talking myself out of good health. I have the desire but the goal seems so distant.

When I was pregnant with Hula Girl I noticed that after I gave birth to her that my body was never going to be the same. After Hula Boy it was set in stone. I would be the proud owner of a pooch belly. I have done everything from sit ups to dieting. Nothing.
When I was younger of course I had a body that was incredible. I was fit and trim. My measurements were 34×19x31 1/2. I was solid muscle. As a mom right now I find it very difficult to get out to the gym. I do not have a babysitter I can rely on because Hubby’s schedule changes a TON. My parents are always willing to help but my mother is still young and works.
I have tried the “Let’s all go for a walk for mommy’s sake!” That is normally greeted with children complaining within 30 seconds. Plus to get my heart rate up I have to go a little fast. Then they complain that they can not keep up. Short of sticking both of them into child care so I can work out there seems to be few options.
I have checked out Curves. It is a company that claims that it is for women. May be older women? May be empty nesters? May be young women that do not have children. Definately not women whos husbands are in the military or away. I get the concept I just depise that I would have to hire someone for the half an hour work out. There is no child care option so to me…it’s not made for quite a few women. It is may for women that meet the above target group.
Our local 24 Hour Fitness has child care. I use to belong there. I rarely went because my children disliked the child care. The workers sat at the desk and talked the whole time. They never interacted with the children. I mentioned this several times in a complaint forum and nothing was done about it. I hate is when people that are hired to do the job of babysitting do nothing but ignore the kids. They just put on a movie. I felt that the money I paid for their care was wasted. I rarely went in the 3 years I had the membership because of the child factor.
Other gyms in the area are pretty expensive. 200-400 to join and then anywhere from 20-50 a month. This is not my idea of budget smart.
So comes the quandry, do I buy home equiptment and get busy? Home equiptment is out of my budget for a while because of school payments until April. So the issue still lies in what to do. Something has to give this year. This year there has to be a change for myself physically. Obviously hiring a trainer for home would be just crazy and again out of range.
My husband heaven bless him has never had a weight issue. He has never had to work hard at losing weight and has no concept of the hard work that is ahead of me. He tries to be supportive but does not know how. He sees it as “just quit eating and start walking”. I have cut back a lot. My mixed up hormones add to the chaos of not wanting to let my weight go.
I was beautiful when I was in shape, I am beautiful now. My huge concern is my health. That is where I get nervous. I need to do this for my health.
Something has to give. I just don’t want to give up before I start. Wish Celebrity Fit Club was for the average joe. I guess Average Joe Fit Club would not make good TV.
So….anyone out there want to take on a charity case out of the goodness of their heart?

So I weighed in yesterday and it’s been two weeks since I had gone. I have lost a total of 5.5 pounds in almost 2 months! It is so discouraging. I know that I can do better. It just seems like my body is working against me. I have worked out diligently 3 days a week. Granted may be the work outs needed to be stronger but I thought that I probably should start out light and get hard. It’s still 30 minutes cardio and 20 minutes on weights.
I guess I’ll just keep plugging along.

Ok this is getting pathetic. I have lost 1 pound in two weeks. Just shoot me! I didn’t get to weigh in yesterday so this is it! 1 pound in two weeks. How did everyone else do?

Ok I’m seriously getting a little bummed out. This weight stuff is so freaking slow!! I weighed in at 1 pound less! For a 3 week total weight loss of somewhere around 3!!!!!!!!! GGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRR. My metabolism is out to lunch ladies and gent!
So all my dieting Hula friends…How did you do this week?

Well I told you I would go postal depending on how well I did!! GGRRR. I did ok but not as good as I had hoped.
I lost 0.6 pounds! I guess that’s better than nothing. I will try harder next week. HOW DID EVERYONE ELSE DO???

Well….the stats are in!!!

I LOST 1.4 POUNDS!! It’s a start to a very long road!! If you feel comfortable with posting your loss or gain…feel free.

I would like to know fellow dieters what this weeks goal should be for our group. An example of this can be things like work out 3 time this week or give up french fries, or to give up fast food for the week, or do 50 crunches in a day. Just let me know. The majority on this one wins the goal!

Tomorrow is D Day. For all of my faithful friends that are dieting with me…tomorrow is weigh in!!! Don’t forget!!
WE CAN DO THIS!!